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2:25 AM

I am

In love. T_T

Like, confirmed.

9:02 PM

How come

Everyone is like enjoying but I still feel so out of place?

I wonder.

If I'm lousy, or I'm lousy.

12:01 AM

24/7

I have made up my mind on several things.

In this life I have made so many mistakes I find myself in fear of what wrong I am going to do next. Yes, as much as we say we will learn from past mistakes, we often find ourselves in the same deep shit.

Headstrong people can make both the best decisions and the worst ones.

Let's see how the first semester goes...

Anyway, Juu, thank you. No particular reason why. :)

8:36 PM

Omg.

I can't believe I'm in Mass Communication...

I've treated people's stereotypical statements as a generalisation based on the minority. Now, I've seen with my own eyes... I'm grasping for air above the suffocating cloud of arrogance. Or should I just lie flat on the ground, and wait for the firemen to save me?

I'm damn happy to be in the same tutorial group as SM! 2 years together in Secondary School, and now we're in the same class again! Wheeee.

Oh and camp was pretty bad. If I didn't have SM, Michelle, Calvin, and some other nice people I met in the camp, it would've been a nightmare. I think the organisers put in a lot effort but they focused on the wrong areas and neglected the more important ones.

Nevertheless, thank you for the good effort...

I still can't believe I'm in Mass Communication.

Will we be able to hold firmly to our roots and beliefs? Or will we be blinded by diamonds?

2:34 PM

A day late friend.

Went to school for the MacBook tutorial today. It turned out to be some nonsensical, time-wasting activity. Despite that, I had fun. I finally met Bryan again after 4 years. And I met SM, Michelle, Hui Ting, Atiqa and Amiril! Fuhuanites unite! Jyings and Juu pangsehed! T_T (You two owe me cash compensation!) Marinne never pangseh because I understand her situation. Her MacBook is down for repair. 

I met Jyings, Felicia and Calvin at City Hall for lunch. Then I decided to go get my acoustic guitar with Calvin's help. I tried several guitars within my budget, but the sounds came out to bright and crusty. Then the man introduced me something above my budget, and it happened - love at first strum. There, a Crafter GA7/N at $360. Good enough for me.

I have to admit though, there was another price that came with this beautiful guitar. I was walking down the stairs excitedly going home with Dope and the new love when I slipped... I heard a thunderous sound. My guitar... I thought my money had gone down the drain. Thankfully not... But right now I've got a horrible bump on the side of my left thigh. It's the size of the surface of a tennis ball. I'm fucking serious hahahaha. FMS people you'll get to see it on Thursday! If it hasn't gone down yet, that is. I'm going to look worse than I already am... And I was planning to wear FBTs throughout the camp. I think I still am. My thigh looks sexy now. My ass...

Thank you Michelle, Glenn and Malcolm for yesterday, and thank you Jyings, Felicia and Calvin for today.

Labels: budget, bump, guitar, thank you, ugly

10:42 PM

I am my enemy.

I have a brilliant mind.

A mind so brilliant I feel incompetent.

A mind so brilliant I feel insecure.

A mind so brilliant,

So deep in thought,

So very deep in thought,

I know I want kill myself,

But have no guts to.

And if I did,

At a new birth,

I would have a mind that

Could

Think less,

Fear less,

Feel less,

Know less.

Then I would be much happier.

Like Shrek.

For now, I'm only close to looking like Shrek.

This is not a suicide note you fools.

This is a confession.

Labels: death, Shrek, thoughts

1:32 AM

Don't.

Please don't do this to me.

3:08 PM

Work replacements and supper

I agreed to replace my sister at work for the day. It was a pretty easy job for a $7/hr thing. All I had to do was go around saying, "Hullo, I'm from Today's Parents' magazine! We're having a contest sponsored by Canon for Child cover, Child & Father cover and Child & Mother cover! Would you like to give it a shot? It's free, and you get to keep a copy of the picture taken instantly at our booth too!" Of course, most of the time, I only had to say "It's F-R-E-E-E!" and the parents' faces would light up instantly. So I didn't have to waste much saliva talking about the sponsors and contest details. Certainly an obvious characteristic of Singaporean people. And quite amusing too, considering the fact that I haven't been very amused with life in a while now.

Since I was in the area I asked Joshua to supper. Finally met him after 4 years of friendship through music. I don't mind having a brother 7 years older than me in my next life! Cause he treated me to nasi goreng!..... But eh that's not the only reason la! I not so jian onez...

An hour's journey home.

Alone.

11:40 PM

I'm sorry.

I'm a fucking bitch. Screw me.

Although the day started off badly... and ended badly too, thank you Michelle for making the in-between fun. Iceskating turned out to be quite alright.

I think it's about time I return to the shell of myself and think about what I have done for the past 4 months.

I'm a fucking bitch. Screw me.

Labels: bitches, iceskating, michelle

10:43 PM

I just...

Had a cup of cold milk. 

Hmm. BBQ went well today, thank you Huifang, Purdey and Chiayin for organising it. :)

Somehow I don't feel happy these days.

Maybe I should go jogging tomorrow.

Labels: cold milk

11:28 PM

Say anything.

I'm not in a very good mood, so I'll just recap on how the past days have been. Not very sure who will read this though... 

The holidays have been pretty good so far. Been going to the gym with Michelle quite regularly. 

One of the more significant days was going out to lunch with Juu at Newton Food Centre last thursday. She brought me some home-made brownies too!

We also gave Huishan a birthday surprise the next day. And the suggested 'Hippie Day' became one celebrated only by Me, Juu and Sarah. I had fun though! :D

On Saturday my dad invited my bandmates Zheng, Yee and Hiroshi over to stay (I think he only allowed that because Zheng and Yee are my cousins)! Daddy was happy because he was granted with temporary sons. So he opened a bottle of Jack Daniel's whiskey. Everyone got high that night. No, not drunk, just fidgety. The next day we performed an acoustic set at Senja Soka Centre. Turned out quite well... 

And today, I watched Slam. I admit the China accent got a little irritating after awhile, but the movie was good. I'll give it a 4/5. I was super excited to watch it. But after that I felt pretty low thinking about my own experiences as a baller.

Also, I only realised today how common the word 'Dope' has become... Oh well. It's quite sad. Not very unique anymore. I feel I did my Macbook injustice.

I shall end with a big sigh.

12:28 AM

The cycle.

Wtf? I should stop lying to myself!

11:41 PM

Sat sat oi.

I had fun at the Sports Camp's campfire today.

12:56 AM

My name is Serene, Sarene or Surene. I guess Urine is fine too.

rena/ sally

choontat/ doreen/ filzah/ huda/ huifang/ huishan/ jocelyn/ juu/ jyings/ marinne/ mich/ za/ zane/ ziqe